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Friday, July 18, 2003
tues
costa sands was fun.. camp seemed pretty high spirited but somehow i din feel happi.. like this shadow following me around. *sounds familiar?* hah guess cos last yr when i went for spark i was feelg depressed so going back there gives me a similar feeling all over again.. sigh. yah attached myself to saule for a while.. michelle (dar's) happened to be in that group. den the onli yr 1 i realli knew was lynn. oh yah, b4 i got there i kinda got lost.. so this guy i asked for directions for actualli walked me all the way in.. hah quite kind souls around.. oh well i left earli for camp.. left after dinner..
wed
was contemplating whether shud go down for camp.. but wasnt too well.. plus felt might make myself unhappi cos i din go.. went swimming at lys place in the afternoon. hmms.. yah this conversation we had realli spoilt my day actualli. she prob din realize it also. but it made me realize how fragile frenships are nowadaes. pple stay as frenz or attached as and when they feel like it. what happened to pacts like those david and (eh die.. who was e other character..) had in the bible. it is like nowadaes, frenships become so transcience.. im ur fren while we are okae.. but something may go wrong.. and we might no longer be frenz. i guess that just shows the permanence and faithfulness of God, and the lack thereof in humans. *sigh*
perhaps i feel jealous? i dunno.. too used to my good frenz not having too many other good frenz. nowadaes i feel like its some kinda competition to maintain and strengthen frenships. its so weird. shud i decrease frenships imptance in my heart? what is frenship anyway? is it just having fun and happy times together? no one can be there for for yu forever..its like the hc school song "no one can accompany anyone forever" i guess that is so true.
or perhaps i dun realli have that many real frenz aniwae.. how many of my frenz actualli keep my sms-es bcos its touching to them.. just like how i keep theirs. perhaps im just too sentimental for my own good. i noe im not supposed to feel liddat.. but i feel very lousy bout myself, esp when im not close to God. izzit satan's lies or izzit that im realli lousy. why izzit i cant play ball games as well as other pple.. or dance as coollY? sigh.. dis side of me doesnt surface v often i guess. most pple fink i look v confident and happi.. but who is around when im not? sigh..
oh no.. why do all my blog entries starting to sound so sad.. aniwaez.. in the evening, i went to night safari with arm and liyi. tot arm wud give me some sweet birfdae present.. in the end he gaf me a book hah so anti climax.. but THANX aniwae :) yah it started raining but i tot it added to the effect. also good.. otherwise i was feelg unwell den have to walk so much. many animals came out.. mebbe cos they r attracted to the rain. oh and we got to take the tram again for free cos they werent so many pple.. and from station 1-2 we had the whole cabin to ourselves haha v kewl.. apparently parents were in a bad mood cos i din want them to pick me up.. weird..
thurs
spent the morning doing stuff like looking for more sponsors, training fluff etc. den 2 o clock went to school to prepare for welcome tea. oh and finally got to see dr. peter pang and his office. he has a huge aspiration for usp.. to make it like ivy league.. small little campus by itself. :) but by that time.. i be outta skool :( oh well..
tea started off formally.. nice.. yah the freshies all seemed v tired until it was their turn for the skit. oh wellz.. den watched them do the mass dance over and over again grp by grp..
in the evening at almost 10, went to imm to buy groceries. 100 bucks. wunder how high std of living wud be when i haf a family.. so scarie..and spent the nite trying to work out next sems timetable..
fri
slacked around the morning den 1pm went for writing centre interview. i tot i did ok.. but i hope dr. lo likes me hahaz.. den went to nkf to pick up stuff and went back to skool to drop it off. hy and cherie came down to help.. thanx a lot :) i fink after korea, i can camp in skool to help w float..
ltr supposedly going genki or kenny rogers cos got vouchers.. byess :)
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
heya.. okae realized my entry sounded quite awful.. hmz.. things have gotten slightly betta since. decided to give e benefit and doubt to bh. and mum is a bit more.. i dunno.. she is still angry but at least not too angry. oh wellz..
friday went to liyis house after skool. i fink its the first time i took bus to her house.. pretty fast from clementi i must say. she was nice and accomodating.. fell asleep while she was playing warcraft..
sat was quite fun.. slacked around in the morning, den went for worship training for youth sunday. was very hot.. but i tot the practice was quite good. :) yup den me and bohao went off to lawrys to eat.. was a beautiful place!! :) it is very english.. ceiling was very high.. and service was very good. like every table had their own waitress. we ordered the california cut, which was supposed to be the smallest cut (but we both still felt very stuffed at the end of it..). the set started off w bread, then the spinning salad bowl.. den the cutter came to our table to cut for us. the spinach was extremely nice. and yorkshire pudding too. altho i fink the whole meal is super oily!! hahaz.. yah the total bill was 150. but that is bcos the waitress bluffed us into drinking mineral water and cos we ordered dessert heez.. one bottle of mineral water was 6.50!! madness..
anihow..it was a nice dinner.. altho we din manage to get the voucher cos bh's debit card din have enuff money after paying for the bintan trip stuff on it. *sigH*
sundae was youth sunday.. cos to church at around 8 *tiredD* i personally tot worship was good.. but the congregation was irresponsive lehz.. sad sad. the skit was funny.. and xueling was realli realli good and funny. yah i felt the speaker was quite engaging and pershaps cos the topic was targetted at gen x, i felt a bit more engaged than usual adult services.. hmmz
captains ball game made me feel very lousy. felt like i was transported back to rgs.. where pple like us will never get to play.. but the bballers and netballers will dominate the field and look cool. but God reminded me that everyone has different strengths.. oh wellz.. :) had short lunch at hill view and went home. bh fell asleep at my laps at home.. hah so funny.. think my couch too comfi..
sunday nite, actualli din wanna go for class outing.. but since mum din wanna see me at home... i went anyway. wasnt too exciting, but at least managed to see the girls.. dixie, peishan and weiling. din tok much to the guys cept to bryan. liyi decided to come down but she got very pek chek when we cudnt catch the movie. in the end her dad was pissed so came to jurong to pick her up after she took the train all the way here. sigh :) oh yah.. wed going night safari!! wheEEe.. :P
yesterdae was monday. went to skool in morning to pack the orientation camp goodie bags.. met vignesh to get vouchers.. in the end, had bfast with bk. he is truly a take it ez guy man.. :) yah den wanted to meet bh but too bz at lynns room.. so i went home. i tanned, swum for a while.. trained fluff.. took a nap.. den dad came home to bring fluff to obedience class. she was more excited this time round, willing to walk and all. but. realized she is very dog shy!! she retreats when she sees other dogs.. but she aint so shy with humans apparently. :) everyone thinks she is very cute.. hee..
yah den met bohao at afzar for supper since it was the 14th.. officially 29 months oredi.. very fast i must say. hmmz.. ice cream goreng was nice!! :P
nuthing much todae yet.. yawns.. going down to costa sands later for camp.. catch ya den.. :)
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