yaWnz.. bz bz..

for those who are reading and don't oredi noe.. i got my exchange to USC (uni of British Columbia) is Vancouver for 2nd Sem :) so.. yup. be gone either late dec or early jan.. then again, depends on whether UBC accepts me.. so yeah.

meanwhile, rag is over.. stayed over in skool for thurs nite, to help with float and hair. im glad i went down in the end.. i feel realli proud of usp.. we r small with not so many committed pple.. but those who are committed are realli dedicated.. :) din sleep e whole nite.. den following morn, bh came specially to skool to find me.. sent me home and cooked lunch for me while i fell asleep hahz.. tot that was quite sweet..

spent the afternoon sleeping.. den hy msged me to tell me i got into exchange. somehow i wasnt so excited.. mebbe cos im worried about being separated with my parents and bh.. but anywaez, thanks gal. visited miyuki and family for last time.. cos they flew off this morning (and i din make it to the airport.. too tirEd.. hahaz)

todae is national dae. i dun feel nationalistic at all..
- posted by espieee36 @ Saturday, August 09, 2003

 
its another day at work.. good thing this week i get to come in at 10 cos dad off to study his course so i dun have to reach skool b4 he reaches office..

yesterdae was flag dae. basically spent the dae with yuwen. we ate at ghim moh.. flagged a bit.. went to hv.. flagged a bit *caught them filming he lan chun* den ben picked us up and we went down to suntec to flag. at the bus stop.. traffic was slow but steady..

singaporeans are realli wot.. if we all automatically donate to charity, den we dun have to resort to selling flags rite. i mean i dun mind if we are like selling things but charging higher price.. but giving a sticker is like so.. wot.. i dunno, why do we have to resort to begging for singaporeans to give to the unfortunate??

aniwae after that met bh to eat dindin. finally got to try out kuishinbo at suntec. hey its cool.. marche style jap food.. so try it out if yu guys like jap food!! :) avonana is niceee

quite bored.. so been reading pples blog.. jh jie.. yu realli had a BAD BAD dae.. kena fined so much! and maddened.. i think there r many many gays out there.. juz closet.. so be careful.. maybe they r targetting yu! :P (aniwaez wot is with bodybuilding and gayS? is my bf gay.. hmmZ :P)

okie supposed to go sell dnd tics now.. byee
- posted by espieee36 @ Wednesday, August 06, 2003

 
i realized how little promises mean nowadaes. it saes in the bible that whatever we say, even if we dun sae that "this is a promise".. everything we sae should count and we shud hold fast to our words.

but nowadaes, promises are onli carried out if i feel like it, if its convenient for me.. and if i remember larh. sigh. promises mean so little..

aniwae its flag day todae.. rushing off now.. byeS!
- posted by espieee36 @ Tuesday, August 05, 2003

 
juz read dar's blog and yah, i have also been wondering if i am intro or extro..

first i wunder if it even matters? most pple are both intro and extro.. jus in different situations. so why does it matter if i am intro or extro most of the time? does it affect the way i deal w pple? not really wot.. i see many introverts having many good frenz and being v loud within their group of frenz.. so yah, why does it matter?

now.. finking back, i actualli think i went from extro to intro..then cos i liked pple to be extro.. so i forced myself to become one? which is why till now, i need personal space and blah blah.

hmmz okae.. got a headache.. mild sore throat and slight diarrha.. catch ya ltr


- posted by espieee36 @ Monday, August 04, 2003

 
hmmz realized i blog very lil when im not close to God. wunder why. mebbe dun feel like blogging e bad times..

i noe wot exactly satan is doing.. hes trying to attack all my "archilles" heels.. where i feel bad about myself and telling me that im not impt..cognitively i noe that God loves me, He has blessed me tremendously, and that i am where and who i am bcos He made me. but i cant help feeling bad and blaming.. why am i so phat.. why my mum din allow me to try blading and ice skating when i was young.. wud have been much ezier to learn. or allowed to be to continue piano or learn dancing. but i guess there is no pt blaming. shud focus my energy on how to learn these new things.. and better my health thru losing weight and other means..

even in terms of spiritual gifts. ok i noe everyone is gifted. and i am not trying to be modest. but altho most pple tell me i am nice and frenly.. i kinda noe i am not really. not that nice, nor that smart nor wotever. dun realli like to help pple so much. not that good at worship. so im startign to think im like all rounder but with no outstanding gifts. hmmz.

meanwhile, mum been making me spend a lot of time with hitomi and toshiki, so much so im starting to feel suffocated. its funny that im an extrovert but i do need lotsa personal space at times. but i guess, since they are going back on sat, so it doesnt realli matter. taught them a bit of swimming yesterdae.. and kinda maintained my tan a bit.. yay *happi*

my dad just told me i needa lose at least 5 more kg. like thanx.. realli needed such a comment earli in the morning.. but yah, its scarie that cos of work this hols i put on around 6kg so now i have lost 3 back. needa lose 3 more to back to square one. *sigh*

okae sorrie to all iF this blog is a depressing one.. i aint feeling too good todaE..
- posted by espieee36 @ Monday, August 04, 2003